I was going to title today Moody Monday.. but then I said no labels. How about Marvelous Monday? It has been quite enjoyable. But I think today is a great example of how oftentimes we live in the grey. The day was not moody, yet not marvelous either. It had its positive, negative, neutral, fair, exciting and dull moments. It had moments of nothingness and moments of somethingness! What I’m trying to say is that a day oftentimes has grey area… it’s very rarely ALL positive or the alternative, at least in my opinion. Today overall was a 9, if I had to label it. I woke up early with a skip in my step. I met a handful of new students and they were very kind. Not to mention respectful and hard working. It was refreshing.

One student said to me “Do you know Mr. K?” And I said “No, I don’t think so” and he replied “he is our favorite sub”. I respect the candid honestly right there. Another student said “you’re not supposed to say that in front of another sub.” I thought this was so cute. I may not be their favorite sub but I certainly learned something right there. You can’t TRY to be somebody’s favorite. I knew this but it is starting to make more sense. I can try all day to be nice, funny, educational, etc. but ultimately it is the student’s decision who they like/dislike. Also, there is a GREY area. I may not have been their favorite after one encounter but we certainly all tried our best. At least, I did.

These are definitely a thing. Maybe if I write down my worries they’ll be eased. I had a relaxing weekend, caught up on sleep and the new season of The Home Edit. If you have not seen this show, I highly recommend it. Two adorable bff’s go into other peoples homes and rearrange/organize their spaces. They are amazing! I literally just finished an episode and I’m looking around my home wondering which space to organize first. I just don’t think I can do it as thorough as they do, though! Would be a pretty awesome occupation though.. professional organizer. Maybe I should apply to be one of the assistants. I’m sure it’s not competitive at all (sarcasm!)

Back to the scaries, I am trying to rid of these. I think it’s just not knowing what the week will bring. But I pretty much know what it will bring so maybe I should lean into it. Wow this actually is helping, by talking (writing) about it. One thing I do know is that the weekends are too short… can we make them three days PLEASE?! Like, who can I talk to about this?

I think I should talk to the President because I’m very serious about this. Friday is technically not even the weekend because you’re still working. Then you have all day Saturday but usually I’m trying to plan something epic that just turns into resting because I’m tired from the week! Does anybody else feel this way?! Not trying to complain but geesh it seems rigged!

Anywho, I know it will be okay. I will go into this week exactly as I am. Tonight I will search around my room for organizing faux pas and most likely won’t do anything about it. But until then, I will have my glass of Chardonnay and relax… as I attempt to look forward to my week..

Millennials are spoiled, lazy, and too opinionated. At least that’s what I have been told. But I am a millennial and I disagree! Some might call it denial. But I’m here to share my stories of living as a millennial in this crazy world that I am trying to love!

March 30, 2022

Hi blogging world, I figured this is where I would start. With today. Because there is no better time than the present, right? I debated how to format, begin, and present my writing but there just is too much to encapsulate from the past. I will start with where we’re at, which is right here. I want to use this blog as an outlet, where others can feel welcomed and quite frankly, normal. Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy… (oh and for what it’s worth, my writing is not meant to be formal or taken too seriously.)

My name is Laura and I am thirty three years young. My zodiac sign is Leo and I am proud of it… although a bit embarrassed because “proud” is one of the first traits that pops up when you Google this fire sign. I fit a lot of the personality traits of the Lion, including creative, passionate, generous. As you can tell, humble is not on that list! But really, I align with characteristics of my birthday and think it’s interesting to explore. Some of Leo’s downfalls (although there aren’t many 😉) include self-centered, lazy and inflexible. I’ll let you guys decide as we get to know each other …

I would describe myself as easy going, agreeable and kind. And quite honestly, if I’m rude or mean it is most likely because I’m grumpy and it has nothing to do with you. There are not many people that I do not like. I love to swim in the ocean. I love going on a hike with a few good friends and dogs. I enjoy a nice glass of wine while crafting a DIY project or watching a home improvement show. My favorite color since I can remember is orange, I love a big bowl of buttery pasta and a night sharing laughs with good friends is what resets my soul.

I’ll share a few (5) quirks about myself… 1. I love blasting nineties pop/rap music wearing a fanny pack filled with Nivea chapstick and arcade tickets because I’m living vicariously with my preteen self. 2. I have a pretty good memory and use that to remember my friends’ & family’s birthdates. 3. I got my head stuck in a revolving door when I was five…4. I absolutely love to give gifts 5. Can I request five more quirks?! I have a lot…

I hope my day-to-day observations and perspective help bring some calm into this, at times, chaotic world!

March 31, 2022

One more fact about myself is that I’m currently a Paraprofessional in a Middle School. What is that? Some may ask. It’s essentially an assistant to a teacher who helps students in small groups, or in my case 1:1. It is an interesting job and a lot of my observations will be made based off my experiences at school. As that is an important place where I spent roughly 35 hours each week. I have been doing this since October and I can confidently say that I learn something new every day. I would say the good and bad days fluctuate and there are many in between days, too. Today is an 8 on the good scale that I just created right now. This is why I would rank it an 8.

First of all, I arrived on time, as did the student that I assist. 7:20 am comes quickly each morning. Today I woke up with little to no time to spare in my morning routine. The thirty minutes that I block out for myself before school is time used to feverishly adorn myself, slug some caffeine, and get the dog settled. I’m out the door and I drive down the road about 1 mile to the fabulous Middle School.

We have six class blocks each day, with subjects consisting of English, History, Math, Science and Special (Physical Education, Design, Art). Each class is engaging (usually) and challenging (usually). I have whole heartedly come to the conclusion that English (the kids call it ELA) is my favorite subject, overall. I enjoy the subject matter as well as the wonderful teacher.

Today I am tired. I am in History and my eyes are almost closing. Then the thoughts start.. did I get enough sleep? Is it because of my depression? Should I just suck it up? Usually it’s a combination of all three reasons. Let’s address each question though so we are being thorough. Sleep, the never ending debate. I find myself in bed around 7 pm, usually reading and then my eyes close sometime after that. I am getting 9 or 10 hours a night… I should not be exhausted. Also, I should not use the word should, because.. well because I learned that in therapy. My depression, this is a contributing factor in my life. I have yet to address this topic until now but I am sure it will be recurring. There is a difference between being physically tired and depressed tired. It may be difficult to compare the two, as there are many overlaps, but if you’ve experienced the depressed tired, you know what I mean. You feel blah, usually you want to just be in bed and left alone. Simple tasks seem monstrous and overwhelming, you feel depleted. This could quite possibly explain my exhaustion at 10 am. Should I suck it up? I go through this phase as well. Just get up and walk around, drink some water, you shouldn’t be this tired. My brains internal dialogue is spinning wildly. There it is. The bell. Off to the next class I go…

The student I assist, we will call him Matt, is in overall good spirits. I have only gotten the middle finger from him twice and he laughed at one of my jokes. We may be getting close-to-no work completed, but this is about preservation, not straight-A’s. I am here for stability, I remind myself. This student needs the support. We shared some laughs… one being that we both kept sniffling at the same time (cold season!) and also we were trying to remember the knock knock jock that ends with “orange you glad I didn’t say banana?!” Can anyone remember how this goes, 🆘.